I deleted the entire post for this week- instead I will post these 2 videos-
I think my friends should at least watch the one titled ‘the video I said I would never make’- I did it because I felt it would help my friends understand some stuff- God bless you all.
To reassure my friends- in the first video I said I was going to mention names- the post I deleted IN NO WAY mentioned any things my friends have done.
I would NEVER talk about the things I learned- from friends- that have happened on the streets- these things were shared with me- as friends.
The thing I was going to write- was another- of many- things I heard that law enforcement did TO THEM [Like maybe planting Zanax on a friend- then- according to my friend- the cop later admitted it].
Now- that’s what I was talking about.
I deleted the whole post- frankly- because it’s difficult to tell these things- without using my friend’s names.
What concerns me about these MANY stories I have heard over the years- is when I tell the guys ‘why don’t you report it’- they are scared.
So- to reassure my friends- who do see my good and bad days- I will never get into the stuff you guys told me in confidence.
Psalm 82:1 God standeth in the congregation of the mighty; he judgeth among the gods.
Psalm 82:2 How long will ye judge unjustly, and accept the persons of the wicked? Selah.
Psalm 82:3 Defend the poor and fatherless: do justice to the afflicted and needy.
Psalm 82:4 Deliver the poor and needy: rid them out of the hand of the wicked.
Psalm 82:5 They know not, neither will they understand; they walk on in darkness: all the foundations of the earth are out of course.
Psalm 82:6 I have said, Ye are gods; and all of you are children of the most High.
Psalm 82:7 But ye shall die like men, and fall like one of the princes.
Psalm 82:8 Arise, O God, judge the earth: for thou shalt inherit all nations.
Matthew 13:1 The same day went Jesus out of the house, and sat by the sea side.Matthew 13:2 And great multitudes were gathered together unto him, so that he went into a ship, and sat; and the whole multitude stood on the shore.
Matthew 13:9 Who hath ears to hear, let him hear.
Matthew 13:41 The Son of man shall send forth his angels, and they shall gather out of his kingdom all things that offend, and them which do iniquity;
Matthew 13:42 And shall cast them into a furnace of fire: there shall be wailing and gnashing of teeth.
56 For many bare false witness against him, but their witness agreed not together .
Thou shalt not raise a false report: put not thine hand with the wicked to be an unrighteouswitness
16 If a false witness rise up against any man to testify against him that which is wrong; 17 Then both the men, between whom thecontroversy is, shall stand before the LORD, before the priests and the judges , which shall be in those days; 18 And the judges shall make diligent inquisition : and, behold, if the witness be afalse witness, and hath testified falsely against his brother; 19
For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts, murders, adulteries, fornications, thefts, falsewitness, blasphemies:
Thou knowest the commandments, Do not commit adultery , Do not kill , Do not steal , Do not bearfalse witness
if we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
I’m going to say a few things here at the end- that some might have problems with.
Thru out this ordeal [the video above- that I said ‘I would never make’] some-over time- said to me ‘John- everyone knows the girl lied’.
And- to be honest- I came to see this over time [thru many events].
But- why would a person say ‘I’m sorry- I don’t remember doing this- but if I did- I’m sorry’ [on facebook].
You might not believe this- but because- at first- being I didn’t know for sure- it would hurt the accuser- if she was right [now- be smart here- a person trying to deny something they did- would never do this- see?]
Now- you might say ‘your nuts’- well- maybe I am.
So- after all we learned at this stage- I’m going to say ‘I’m 99% sure I didn’t do this’- but- if I did- then ‘I’m sorry’.
Another lesson learned- after 2 years- you might think ‘wow- I had no idea it would affect him like this’.
Let me say something- everything has changed in my life- and even though I feel I’m back on track to a degree- you have no idea how this sticks with a person- for life.
You never know if the people you are trying to help- have read about you on-line.
Then- you might be working with someone- helping a street person- all is going well- then one day they are afraid to look at you- ahh- they read something.
Or- if you think someone knows- then that person accepts you- you feel great.
But- if that person avoids you- maybe for another reason- you think ‘O my God- I thought they knew!’
I never realized that your life changes- forever.
I’m typing at the coffee shop right now- but- a few weeks ago I gave some of the kids my card- so they could enjoy the site.
Then I thought ‘I haven’t seen so and so for a few days’- a new friend.
Again ‘O shit- I gave him the card- now he read everything’.
I mean this never ends.
So- maybe me talking openly about this helps others- I hope so.
Note- Do me a favor, those who read/like the posts- re-post them on other sites as well as the site you read them on. Thanks- John. Don’t forget to scroll down on the timeline [FaceBook#] - I have posted lots. visit- ccoutreach87.wordpress.com- my radio shows.